This series reflects my journey through sobriety and the awakenings that shaped my path - choosing recovery, receiving a life-saving lung transplant, and learning to live with presence and purpose, one day at a time. Each painting explores themes of surrender, devotion, renewal, and connection. As a whole, they offer a visual meditation on healing, spiritual growth, and the beauty found in transformation. I hope that these works inspire self reflection and a deeper connection within.
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Image Credit: By Jacqui Photography
My Part in It
24½” x 25¼” | $335
Sobriety continues to teach me more about myself every day. Sometimes, the lessons are difficult—like taking responsibility for actions I’m not proud of. While it’s not easy to admit my wrongdoings and hold myself accountable, these moments deepen my perspective and offer powerful opportunities for spiritual growth. Self-awareness has been one of the most valuable gifts of sobriety—being awake to my actions and clearly seeing “my part in it.”
Image Credit: By Jacqui Photography
Voice of Soul
34¾” w x 47¾”h | $670
When the mind is quiet, the Self can fully enter the present moment, making room for intuition and inner guidance. Voice of Soul speaks to the soft, steady whispers that rise from deep within us — the voice of our inner truth. This voice helps shape who we are and who we are becoming. It may not always be the one we follow first, but it is always there, persistent and quietly present. The more we turn inward and listen, the clearer and more powerful that voice becomes.
Image Credit: By Jacqui Photography
Journeying
24½” x 25¼” | $335
Sometimes, life feels like an endless path — a constant striving to arrive, to feel whole, fulfilled, and purposeful. There’s a deep longing to understand why we’re here. Journeying reflects the ongoing nature of this path, where the true destination is consciousness — the state of being awake and fully present. The present moment is the destination, and the gift is that we get to arrive there again and again.
Image Credit: By Jacqui Photography
No Filter
24½” x 25¼” | SOLD
For most of my life, I “filtered” myself to be accepted. I held back from expressing my true, abundant self. Sobriety has given me the strength and courage to show up as I am. The filter comes down, and I’m finally able to see myself clearly. It’s a journey of self-love, self-compassion, and acceptance. I am the only me—so why hide my gifts and attributes? The more I show up authentically, the deeper my connection becomes with both myself and others. As far as I know, this is the only life I’ll live on this earth, and it’s important to me to live it with honesty, integrity, and no filter.
Image Credit: By Jacqui Photography
Tea with Mara
31¾” w x 50½” h | SOLD
Every day brings a new conversation with the Self. More often than not, that dialogue is laced with self-criticism and judgment, stirring up old feelings of shame and guilt. These are the shadow parts of the self—hidden, painful aspects that rise uninvited to the surface. Sitting with challenging emotions is uncomfortable and hard. The instinct is to ignore them, bury them, and keep moving. But like a pressure cooker, what goes unacknowledged eventually erupts—often causing more harm, most of it internal.
Tea with Mara is a visual representation of a Buddhist teaching in which the Buddha— enlightenment, lightness, and divinity—invites Mara, the tempter and embodiment of suffering, to tea. Why would the Buddha welcome an entity so dark? Because true spiritual growth requires that we not reject our suffering, but meet it with presence and compassion.
This work explores the intersection of light and shadow, and the quiet beauty that emerges when the two meet. That peaceful space is where the healing begins and awakening occurs.
Inner Light
25¼” w x 36¼” h | Not for Sale
We come into this world as light. Throughout life’s journey, that light can become compromised—dimmed by outside influences, broken systems, and societal pressures. As a result, it may begin to fade, losing its genuine spark. Pain fills the space where light once lived, and unhealthy coping mechanisms can surface. Addiction often plays a central role in attempting to treat that pain, falsely mimicking the qualities of light—confidence, love, safety, and connection.
Even in darkness, glimmers of light can still be felt and seen. When nurtured, light grows—becoming more expansive, more radiant. The process of moving through the depths to reclaim courage and strength adds to the light’s value and preciousness. The inner light becomes the motivation for positive change and growth—the force that fuels the flame and keeps the fire within alive.
Image Credit: By Jacqui Photography
Inwardly Reorganized
24½” x 25¼” | SOLD
I believe we all enter this world with everything we need. But as soon as we arrive, our “humanness” begins. My own human experience has deeply enriched my soul, while also leading me through moments of darkness and challenge—each one a doorway to growth. The path of addiction dimmed my inner light and distanced me from my higher self. But when I made the decision to get sober, conscious spiritual growth became a priority. Slowly, something within me began to shift and heal. I became inwardly reorganized, allowing Spirit to mold me.
Image Credit: By Jacqui Photography
Flow (In Flow)
24¾” w x 35¾” h | Not for Sale
Being in flow is peace. It’s a feeling of natural goodness—a state we’re meant to experience in this human body.
But to recognize flow, we must first know what it feels like to swim upstream—to carry weight, to push against the current, to live out of alignment with who we are. The contrast teaches us.
Flow comes when we understand the currents, then choose to step out of them—to float, to trust the guidance within us, and the quiet forces that surround us.
Image Credit: By Jacqui Photography